The masquerade's ball

look in the mirror....see a saint or sinner....?
where is your right....where is your wrong...
be it a fat man or thinner...

look around at all that surrounds...
look inside at all your own grounds...

ask yourself...is this all that there is?...
is there no more to put in this mix...
this massive void...the whole i can't fix...

my zest for life is beginning to return...
i feel a need to grow and  a need to learn...

but what do i need in subject or feed...
poke in the dark to find a lead...

hands open wide...accepting it all...
learning so much...its like I'm in free fall...
it not all good i have to admit...not all this information does easily sit!...
but it is the truth that can be said...
at least now i can look...without feeling dead...

self examination...self education...
ask all the questions that haunt this great nation...
and know when you see it...disinformation...

if your told not to look...its for a good reason...
you comply for a while....turns out its high treason...
you ask all the questions...receive all the answers...
Penny's drop...while viewing the fanciers...

the cryptic puzzle now starts to fit...
as unpleasant as it is...you cant seem to quite...
the more you read...the more you learn...
touched by fire...you start to burn...

a screaming....a rage...you know this feeling...
you'll take to the grave...
one pair of legs...but two paths to take...
which one the truer...it's important...for your souls sake...

to believe the source...would be easy...ignore your mind...
to follow to your nose...sniff in the dirt...examine your find...
both destinations are bad...both very sad...
but do you want to be...
a fool in love who fell  from favour...
or a name on a list who has been had...none of it ever true...this time no saviour...

in the end...there both the same...one way or another it's all been a game...
the only thing is...you didn't realise you were being played...

where to lay blame...who's fault to name...
i did the worst.... i knew the script...
but then...so did you...both were tight lipped...

was it all Lie's...from beginning to end...
a semblance of truth...rehearsed lines... from which to fend...
anyway...even if it's an illness...it doesn't excuse  this behaviour... this to'ing and fro'ing ...
knew from the start where this was going...
all planned out...from the outset...
had the bait...the target to get...
like a badger...pulled from it's set...

tho still i played my part...gave quite freely my torn heart...
was wrapped...enveloped in your masquerade...
at the end it began to fade...

lollie