I stand...open before me....vast nighttime lunar horizon.....stretches from my outstretched hands....out into eternity....
i can feel the very pull and push...the very ebb and tide of life...of existence...i feel it coursing through and into my palms,channeling up through my wrists...my forearms....charging my skin,my flesh beneath...the bone that structures my physical self...
i feel all of life's pleasurable pressure passing like wave after wave of pure unadulterated neurological energy...filling my solar plexus....my heart....my bundle of hiz....my mind...my hypothalamus.....cerebral cortex firing off on all cylinders...
synapses clicking...creating possibilities...analysing a thousand thoughts a second...proving and then disproving secular concepts and metaphysical conundrums that flow like a raging river of cosmic energy through and around and into my brain....
bending...snapping....obliterating every shred of soft jelly like gray matter that holds itself upright and proper inside my skull....that sits on its axis atop the curvaceously strong spinal column that holds and protects the central channel of nerves that carry every sense...every impulse...every action and reaction and single signal that i will ever experience in my short insignificant life.....
.i stand...open before me....vast bright and clear....moonlit expanse....opening before my eye's....i stand there seconds before my eye's closed,feeling the breeze across my back and chest arms held out straight.....open....the cool night air bringing me suddenly to life...my eye's burst open...like i have had a shot of adrenaline thrust in my beating heart....
and i stand in this state...wide eyed and gaping at the scene unfolding before me.....shaking...trembling...bare chested....my legs quaking...feet feeling the cold wet grass beneath me....the slightly damp soil....it's weight pressing down,putting pressure on the rock below it...that in turn putting it's own weight and pressure back upwards onto my soles....thought the soil,the grass....my skin....
as i stand on this cliff edge....waiting silently...patiently thoughtout eternity almost waiting for this very second....for my to awaken here and stand in awe....
the blackened sky above me....diamond pin holes of light a billion light years away....yet somehow completely connected and interconnected thoughout the space of the universe...and yet again connected with me...
stood on this cliffedge....the sound of the crashing waves far below me....though as i listen i find i can't hear them....
i hear the rush of blood in my ears....that and the deafening overpowering, all encompassing sound of silence....
the sudden awareness of the depth of the impending fall in front of me bringing with it the enlightening and temporal awareness of the fragility of the physical human skeletal form...
a single step....gravity accelerating....pulling me down to those silent crushing...rolling waves and hard cold rocks....
beyond this brittle...bleeding...viscous...and visceral there is an everlasting eternal reverberating...resonating soul that cannot be killed...hurt...robbed or abused and that can be relied upon at anytime and is capable of love and kindness and will never....never...never stop....
so stare out into that eternal void and know beyond a shadow of a doubt that the void stares endlessly...unceasingly....eternally....back into you.
Lee....
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